Above is a scale of different sizes. When I look at this I think I am two steps larger than what my husband says I really am. Is he lying to make me feel better? I always thought so. (And let's be honest, he probably is, but even so, I'm betting he's only lying by one step - not two)
I have a very skewed sense of perception when it comes to what I look like and what a healthy, attractive weight is. I know this. I'm 5'9, in college I was a size zero and at one point weighed as little as 96 pounds. Is that healthy? Of course not. Before I got pregnant I weighed 115. For years I felt like if I wanted to look decent I needed to get back to that weight. In the fifteen years since I've had my son I haven't, not even close. I've felt like a blob.
I know I'm not the only person to do this. I read an article earlier in the week that stated 95 percent of non-eating disordered women overestimate the size of their hips by 16 percent and their waists by 25 percent, yet the same women are able to correctly estimate the width of a box. How can we correct this horribly skewed sense of our body image?
I stumbled upon a website yesterday that has made me rethink what I may look like and has made me feel immensely better. It has a search bar where you can punch in your weight, your height, your pant and shirt size and BAM! Tons of photos pop up of people who are around your size. I have to say, it was an eye opener. Although I find myself disgusting, I didn't see one single woman on that website who weighed in my range that I thought was fat, disgusting or slovenly like I think of myself. I eat healthy, I take care of myself and I'll never, ever weigh 115 pounds again... and that's okay.
If you aren't currently modeling for Victoria Secret and a size -2, check out this website. I think you'll be surprised what your height and weight really look like.