I know my own limitations. My body isn't what it was twenty years ago, my youth is fading and I recognize the fact that I am not now, nor was I probably ever the most beautiful woman to walk into a room. In school I was a bit of a dork. Well, let's call it nerd. I made good grades and I thought I was brilliant, yet as I age, I also realize that the wisdom that I once thought I had is actually now with me, because I understand how truly stupid I can be at times. I see my own ignorance on so many topics and I strive to learn as much as I possibly can. Was I ever the smartest person in a classroom? Well, there was that one remedial math class I took in college because I bombed the math portion of the ACT and had to take it, so in that particular case, I actually think I may have been… but any other day, absolutely not. I have met people who possess the most inspiring minds, people who can grasp concepts that I'm not sure I've ever understood, people who can solve problems and have talents that I could never rival. I am not jealous of these folks, I try to learn from them.
By recognizing my limitations, by the self realizations that I just mentioned, it may sound a little self-effacing, but it's not. What it does is it gives me a drive to be so much more, and in doing so I realize there is something so special about me. I am stubborn, and although I may not be blessed with the looks of a supermodel or the brain of an MIT graduate, I am someone who stands out when I walk into a room. No, not for beauty or intelligence, but I feel confident that I am most likely one of the hardest working people there. I am special. I am unique. I am me, and no one else can be that.
What this post is primarily about is this… Know your value. You don't have to be the most popular, the beauty queen or the smartest. It's okay to be different. However, when people make you feel less than what you know yourself to be, whether they belittle you, try to stand in your way, or if they simply just don't love you back, love yourself enough to know that those people weren't meant to be a part of your life. Sometimes it is painful to let go, but giving up on people who hurt you isn't really giving up at all. It's being brave and starting over. And besides, if someone is stupid enough to not see how special you are, not only are they the ones missing out on knowing you, but you'd probably figure out at some point that they weren't all you though they were anyway.